Just Breathe

“It’s okay to breathe in between the spaces of not knowing” -me (Angela Blake)

As many of you know I was recently diagnosed with Rheumatoid arthritis. What most of you don’t know is that I have been battling autoimmune issues my entire life. This is just an added plot twist.

If this happened two years ago, I would have been an absolute mess. I would have walked away from everything I believed in. I would have felt abandoned.

Two years ago I began my deep spiritual journey. I began my shadow work to heal the wounds of my past. I had no idea I was also preparing for the wounds of the future. I was learning better ways of coping with what life has to throw at you. I was given the gift of stillness (though I still struggle to surrender to that fully). I was given the understanding of the breath, of meditation, the joy of self love, the understanding of the beauty of this now moment.

Attitude is 100% everything when facing any difficulties. I don’t mean it’s not okay to have a moment of fear, anger, sadness etc…. I mean allow for the feelings, express the emotions, rage through the anger, cry out all those tears….but don’t wallow. Wallowing swallows the soul. It only increases the duration of pain, be it physical or emotional. In fact it can actually multiply your pain (scientifically proven fact).

The hardest part of any difficult time is the spaces between knowing and not knowing. When we don’t know, we tense up, we hold our breath, we shove down our feelings and our minds go on a craptastic journey of what if… when was the last time our what if scenario became 100% our reality.? For most of us, the answer is never too rarely.

Today my guides reminded me that it’s okay to breathe in this space. It’s okay to just be in this moment without answers. Answers do not come any quicker when we hold our breaths. Sometimes you just have to surrender to the unknown and just be.